2019 - Close Up

There're (at least) two areas of endeavor for which large format capture was/is ideally suited: botanicals and architectural.

The 1^st trip I took with the Linhof way back when was to the Gogebic Range. Mostly I shot botanicals, because that's what I saw. The results were satisfying.

The 2^nd trip with the Linhof was to Switzerland. Mostly I shot vintage architecture, because that's what I saw. Upon returning home, a remarkable percentage of those 120 high risk sheets of 4x5 transparencies left me agape.

Architecture won, hands down. The love affair began. That altered the course of my creative life. And so it's been, for these last decades of work.

Not coincidentally, botanicals often came included.

There was nothing nimble about the Linhof and nothing easy about doing outstanding fieldwork with it. Though my long term shooting ratio ended up excellent, that's because I learned to be meticulous.

Even so, committing resonant, deep focus images via lengthy exposures onto 4x5 transparency film in the wild frequently became a fool's errand. Too much light. Not enough light. The wrong kind of light. Or simply the slightest breeze could and did ruin any given day's entire effort.

Happily, I chose architecture. Mostly, that doesn't move. 'Least not while you're looking.

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The last few years, digital capture's proven every bit as personally and creatively transformative as was large format film. Except this time the revolution's not exclusive but inclusive and rather than arrive as a sudden epiphany, the transformation rolls on.

One thing leads to the next, everything interconnected. Unexpected only in the moment. Familiar upon review.

January of last year, I swapped out a fine specialty lens that didn't get much use for another that might. Boy did it ever.

It was as if I'd opened the happy version of a photographer's Pandora's Box. Now I see the world different. In a sense, through child's eyes.

An image need no longer be tack sharp foreground to infinity for to be considered excellent. Indeed, it's often better when it isn't. Nice way to embrace a tool's limitations…

Of course, it's still convenient when the object at hand doesn't move.

Yet it's no longer a prerequisite. My newfound nimbleness is occasionally faster than even the jumpiest life.

No less the boldest and least afraid. Next spring we'll be on maybe our sixth generation of Great Black Wasps since they first arrived. My special garden companions, because they're great & black and utterly indifferent to me.

And neither is impossible light the hard barrier to success it once was. Previously, I'd have never looked twice, at this...

For an old transparency shooter, that's like a freakin' miracle. At the very least, digital capture and processing constitutes yet another in our long list of modern technology's many wonders.

I've not left architecture behind, as you can see. But it remains 400+ miles to Superior country and for myriad reasons, I travel less these days. It's good to find work close to home.

It's also healthy to finally focus on something other than the past – those remnants of generational failure that have for so long been my specialty. It's almost a surprise that fresh air needn't necessarily come laden with despair.

Yet for as radically as the tools have evolved and my opportunity has broadened commensurate, the basic subject's unchanged. It's the light. Only and ever the light.

Now, today and tomorrow. It's always about chasing light.

And being both meticulously prepared and nimble enough, to perhaps capture a fleeting moment when it's positively perfect...

Winter Solstice, 2019

Many ancient peoples recognized the exact moment their dark world tilted back toward the light.

Sometimes gathered at massive stones erected in great circles constructed expressly for the purpose, they watched and waited, then together celebrated the turning.

It's easy to think these folk knew the world mostly through primitive intuition. Much like we used to believe about animal awareness - called intelligence, so to better separate us out from our animal cousins. Except intuition doesn't account for those stone circles, built precisely to purpose. As is often the case, the easy answer's wrong.

Remnants of recent stone construct are frequently ambiguous. Transience befitting purpose. If you think abandonment/dissolution weren't built right in, think again.

Modern science reveals that the day after tomorrow will gift us with one measly second of additional light. No one should blame us, if we don't mark it. We've a damnably complex compendium of critical tasks at hand, rather than spare time for to celebrate an obscurity.

Even considering science propelled by reason and a vastness of knowledge we should resolutely be using to replace old ways with new, our collective path forward appears fraught. At best, uncertain.

Naturally, uncertainty breeds fear. Populist bullshit would have you believe fear unites and through unity makes us stronger, but that's what fire tells wood until wood's reduced to ash and can no longer hear.

Social science informs us that despite seeking unity through fear, as individuals we've rarely if ever felt more isolated from the common tribe. Instead we feel alone, set adrift and left at the mercy of a cold, darkening world.

Were we at least as smart as pagans or even your average green plant, we'd intuit that it's our essential nature to collectively survive dark times by individually putting our shoulder to the wind and pushing forward until the world we've made turns back toward the light, where under its many blessings those who survive the effort might thrive.

Should we do that together, perhaps we'll again appreciate exactly what it was primitive people saw fit to celebrate, during their world's apparently darkest day.

Shining Light on the Prairie -- Autumn's Last Call

Meteorological winter officially arrives December 1st. The vernal equinox not until three weeks after that.

Our first snowfall of the year is expected Thursday, trick or treat. The first killing freeze of the season is due the following morning and voilà, winter.

So this year, both science and the pagans are wrong.

The prairie's been creeping toward the dark for a while now and competition over what food remained on it turned fierce well beforehand. Yet early this month, on any given sunny day we hosted a dozen or more butterflies and maybe a score of bees, each claiming their shrinking share of perennial richness.

On the prairie in October, that's not guaranteed.

Moths, crickets and other beasties worked the night shift. We were like the 24/7 diner that never closed. If you don't know about those, look it up.

Then the first light frost tip-toed in on little predawn feet. Everyone knew it, but all hint of winter was quick whisked away in the glory of a sparkling autumn morning, as if it'd never happened.

Following the second frost, our highest butterfly count plummeted to three.

Bees became few and those were down to the Carpenters, working awfully hard for precious little.

Monarchs became passing strangers and have since moved on altogether. This was a great year 'round these parts for monarchs. I don't pretend that means they're 'saved' or anything like it, but still.

Curiously, milkweed bugs chose last week to make babies. They clustered together in the afternoon sun for protection and warmth and on cloudy days, the bug family vanished in grey chill. Meanwhile, their home steadily degrades beneath them and all around.

Life can be hard to spot now, even on wetlands.

Bedazzled by hues of burnished gold speckled with stubborn green and brilliant blues all struck together in splendid light, we tend to forget that's the mask of death, if not necessarily despair.

Now to find life this side of the dark season, you have to really look. Sometimes it's protected from the frost by a canopy of waving grass, floating muted in constant shade.

Mostly, you've got to get all the way down to the roots. Where air and water meet and meld with wet earth, life gathers strength for what's to come.

During most any given day over these last few months, I simply stepped out my back door into the sun and was surrounded by riotous life. I already miss my little friends. I believe I'll see them again.

Soon enough, Prairie Smoke we planted last spring will rise. On the underside of incipient green leaves will be baby fireflies, pin prick miniatures of their summer selves.

Dark-eyed Juncos will pass through on their way north, even as they have this week headed south. Spiderwort will bring early bees. The wild seed lupine that's had a full year now to get comfortable will finally show its true colors. Purple coneflower that did admirably well after a violent division, will next year thrive even more.

Myriad butterflies, bees and wasps will follow and the constellation of life will be riotous again.

On the cusp of darkness at the edge of northern ice, so I choose to believe.

Onward then, through winter.

Yondota Rocks

Eventually, all things merge into one, and a river runs through it. The river was cut by the world's great flood and runs over rocks from the basement of time.

                                                                                                       

                                                                                                       -Norman Maclean

Spend enough quality time wandering the wilderness and occasionally, a specific place might become sacred. For me, one of those is the short stretch of woods through which the Presque Isle River on its way to Superior cuts through hard rock at what we call Yondota Falls.

I know exactly when that started.

It was a misty autumn day when as young adventurers Johnny, Heather & I cooked lunch upon a carpet of damp moss covered in pine needles shaded by gnarled evergreens. But for the turbulent river below, all the world was at peace.

A bald eagle floated by just overhead, come down from near extinction to take a closer look at the trio of humans gathered in curious ceremony atop this slippery, sheer rock wall:

Or maybe it just smelled the meat cooking.

In any event, the place hooked me. My connection to it deepened through the decades until now, to the extent I recognize the word, it's sacred to me.

The first image of mine to ever hang in a gallery was of Yondota rock. In truth a pretty crappy photo, the gallery owner undoubtedly credited my enthusiasm but also recognized incipient value in my vision.

Most every person who ever visits merely stands on the stone to watch the water slip by and admire the general scenery, before heading back to the road and going on their way. Perhaps to the next set of waterfalls on the traveling list.

Instead, I'd seen the rock. And it's Yondota rock that keeps drawing me back.

In a wilderness almost entirely reconstructed of second or third growth forests and even the trees aren't the same sorts of trees there used to be, sites of authentic ancient resonance are rare. Sanctuaries hidden in deep woods where echoes of human history are wholly absent free the staggering resilience of life on earth to be manifest, and whispers older than memory can be heard plain.

These are landscapes made of lasting interrelationships fostered by complex organic symmetries predating humans by an extra wide margin. Having lasted so long the sites will likely outlive us since there, daily living retains natural integrity.

Inhospitable to us as the terrain may truly be, it's still infinitely more viable than we. At the very least, that should give us pause.

Born of vulcanism and in middle age broken by glaciers, the rock remembers before there was life on earth.

In our time, periodic high water sweeps the land clean. The river falls and off placid pools of rich fresh water trapped by inviolate stone, life flourishes. Then the river rises again.

What's hearty enough to survive until the flood recedes, does.

This ancient landscape would slough modern humanity off and deliver us in pieces downriver for Superior to disperse. We cannot live there. Happily, that leaves the most permanent wilderness to those who can.

Today when unintended consequence promises another great flood and what to do about that before it wipes us away is a Sisyphean riddle hiding a Gordian knot, we must draw strength that Yondota still exists. Because at this spot in the forest along the Presque Isle River, the natural relationship between water, stone and land that enables terrestrial life goes on unimpeded.

It's there to see. One need only look.

At Yondota Falls, moment frequently combines with light and in a backwoods pool one might capture the Earth's past, its present and perhaps even the future in a single glance.

To me, that's entirely sufficient evidence to accept the place as sacred.

Bobcat Lake -- A Love Story

Two days and thirty-six years and ago, Heather married me.

Yeah, I married her too. Yet you can tell just by looking I was the dumb part of the deal and it'd never have happened had this formidable woman not chosen to take on such a nettlesome task.

I'm me, after all.

The first week of our honeymoon, we camped at the Presque Isle unit above Superior near the far western border of the Porcupine Mountains Wilderness. Shortly after arrival, I carelessly bounced the business end of an ax across the back of my hand.

Dr. Heather sprang to action and healed me. Today, I can't even find the scar.

We spent the second week of our honeymoon at Bobcat Lake, surrounded by the massive Ottawa National Forest. Our preference for both the spare, dry campsite atop the bluff overlooking mighty Superior and the messy one on intimately equal footing with swampy Bobcat was already well established.

If we considered any other destination to revel in officially sanctioned love, I don't recall it.

At seventy-six acres and maxing out at about eighteen feet deep, Bobcat is a modest lake. Most days a fitting venue for a canoe, even sometimes leeward the great forest when the breeze blows hard.

The thing about Bobcat Lake is that you're never, ever alone. Not even close.

Frequently, I hunt a bay alongside Bald Eagles. Sometimes I do better than the birds and they scowl at me.

But then, my game's different than theirs. Of necessity, raptors come to kill. Of necessity, I don't.

Not for decades now. Not since a seminal event in my life unexpectedly played out on a similarly gorgeous morning a few steps up from here, under the trees:

Used to be the main beaver works ran a long ways back toward the woods, where at that boundary the beavers engineered a complex series of step dams, complete with sluice gates. It was there we encountered a rare (for Michigan) Canada Lynx, still the only one in our experience.

While on the lake I've watched Osprey hit the water at speed, flap their wings twice to shed liquid diamonds, then rise with a fish and soar off into an azure sky above trackless wilderness.

At Bobcat, everybody eats.

One morning I sat frustrated in the canoe, shrouded by dense fog and becalmed on placid waters. Entreaty went unanswered. No fish came to play. I pondered my miserable fate.

Crunch…Crunch…Crunch, broke the dead silence.

I looked all around. Directly behind, an otter stood impossibly high out of the water, contentedly eating a fish while watching me.

"You're the reason I'm not catching anything," I scolded. The otter was unperturbed.

Often, at Bobcat I'm accompanied by loons. They're the signature bird of the Northwoods and much revered.

It's said loons are sensitive to our presence and we should keep our distance whenever possible. That's tough to do, when they follow you around. To date, I've managed to not take the loon's lilting song as laughter at my fishing prowess.

That stare, on the other hand…

Down from the beaver works where the inflow sent by the forest feeds the lake, there's a seasonably variable but otherwise permanent expanse of wild wetland. Look close when the light's just right and you'll find that strung along slender reeds waving in the breeze an entire kingdom of spiders thrives, suspended above the water, beneath the sky.

There's all manner of life there too. Well, call much of that ex-life. When the light's not right, the gossamer kingdom vanishes.

Though it can be sharp-edged and fraught to live at, the place is magnificently fecund.

At Bobcat Lake we've seen glowworms turn grassy shoreline into starry night. Predawn fog rise thick, then dissipate with the sun. We've watched towering storms bear down fast over the forest's crown, lightning leading the way. We listened as the woods above and all around roared with indignation at the lashing, with only a sheath of rip-stop nylon between us and the fury.

Always, the sun returns.

In warm weather or chill, still winds or fierce, caught in shimmering light or with midday turned to midnight on the storm, I love the diverse company found at my lake. No less so, the place itself.

Landscapes speak. Those we've not altered overmuch speak plain. Some offer a glimpse of what the world might be like without us.

Perennial host to riotous life and death, hidden by the mighty Ottawa Forest but for a winding gravel road out from hardscrabble Marenisco, little Bobcat Lake speaks not only to the myriad critters that call it home. It also speaks to me. And for that, I am blessed.

Plainly put, ours is a longstanding love affair. No more, no less. Don't worry, Heather knows and wholeheartedly approves.

So you'll understand how happy I am to have once again returned to the embrace of my love...